not a girl, not yet a woman

So, at the ripe old age of 26, I have never purchased a brand-spanking new car. Never really had the money or desire to do it. Then I saw the object of my obsession, a 2005 Honda CR-V, and it was sort of the right price. I could handle it. Or so I thought. Instead, I found myself getting sick to my stomach (just like my mother) when I thought of spending all that money.

So, I chickened out. I'm just going to make a huge list of repairs that need to be done to my trusty Honda Accord and go from there. This way, I can use the money that I was going to spend on a CR-V on something else that I won't need.

I do feel relieved, but at the same time, I'm mad that I made money control me like that. I know very few people who haven't purchased a brand new car. Why can't I be one of those people? Instead, I'm going to save up for a car when I need it, like when I have kids or something. By then, cars will probably be even more expensive, so either way I'm screwed.